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Went to the gym today, and feel kinda frustrated/confused. Last time I went on the treadmills, I did 40 minutes and on their speed thing my speed averaged about 2.3 and it said I did 2 miles. Today I did 30 minutes on the treadmill, never went under 2.5, was mostly at 2.8 and went up to 4.5 a few times for 30-60 second sprints, and it said I did 1.42 miles. That just doesn’t add up. In the first scenario, I’m going at a slower speed and doing a 20 minute mile, but in the second scenario I’m going faster and a mile is taking longer?

*I’m not letting it get to me…I’m not letting it destroy my motivation. I know I’m improving, no matter which one is right, I worked harder today then I did before. I’m just one of those people who needs to know everything and gets frustrated when things are illogical.

 Thanks for reading my little rant

 By the way, I saw a news clip about a girl who lost 120 lbs in 11 months. The first day of her exercising she did 20 minutes of cardio, she started by running for 30 seconds then she walked the rest. Every day she added 30 seconds to her running time until she was running the full 20 minutes, by the time she could run all 20 minutes without stopping she had lost 50 pounds. Just thought it was an inspirational story.

So, week one is over. And I lost 2 1/2 pounds. I’m really excited. The only other time I’ve stuck to a diet was Weight Watchers, and I didn’t lose that much weight in a week ever. I was actually really surprised because I cheated a couple times, while I was in a vicodin haze from the tooth pulling I ate some macadamia hershey kisses that a co-worker brought me from Hawaii, and today I had a few bites of ice cream because there was a huge sundae bar in our break room at work. I threw away most of it though, which is better then eating the whole thing I suppose. But not quite as strict as I was hoping to be. Oh well, it’s an improvement and I’ll just keep improving as I go.

I’m also starting to incorporate more vegetables into my diet, not only eating them but eating them in a healthy way. Brocolli is good for you, but less good if it’s smothered in cheese. I realized the only way for me to get away from the creamy dressings I’m used to having on salads is to change me view of a salad. So I’ve decided to teach myself to like spinach. It’s one of those vegetables that I don’t dislike, but it’s not something I choose to eat. I also added some other things I don’t normally put in a salad. So, tonights dinner was pasta and then a large spinach salad with a quarter of an apple chopped up in it, cucumber, carrots, a few walnuts and a few raisins. I know, I know, dried fruit not nearly as good for you as fresh fruit, but to me the extra calories were worth the texture and sweetness the like twenty raisins I added. I also made a vinaigrette with olive oil, seasoned rice vinegar and a little bit of lemon pepper. I threw on a few crutons, but they got really soggy in the vinaigrette which was NOT tasty, and probably for the best because now I won’t be tempted to put them on my salad anymore, which kinda balances out the raisins I suppose. Well, that’s all I have for now.

Today I got a wisdom tooth removed. Probably won’t really have the energy to exercise for the next couple days while I’m doped up on pain meds, but I also won’t be eating very much. So, hopefully it’ll even out. Also I’ve been looking up some more information on the braces, and some of the things it’s going to cut out of my diet kinda suck (no carrot sticks, I figure I can still shred them for salads though, and apples have to be cut up really small, no corn on the cob, no nuts) others might actually help out with the diet (no popcorn, no hard candies). Still feeling motivated, still reading books. Very appreciative for all your immediate support. Really tired right now, but should have some time to read some of your blogs and learn more about you all this weekend. Thanks again!

Well, hello. My names Hayley, I’m 21 5′3″ and weight 257. Just found that out tonight, haven’t weighed myself for over a year. I figured I was around 250. I also just found out I need braces. Woohoo. Yeah. I know. It’s amazing. So, I made a decision, I had already decided to go on a diet, but now it’s going to be hardcore. I’m going to use this time, about a year and 8 months, to get myself to a point where I’m happier with how I look, if not at goal. Next was to make a plan. I’ve tried a few diets, weight watchers included and nothing has worked. So, I’m making up my own. I’ve decided that giving up all the foods I like to eat at once is not a brilliant idea. So, I’m cutting out desserts (major chocohalic), sodas and all those yummy chocolatey calorie filled drinks from starbucks. When I’ve adjusted to that I’ll start cutting out other foods, pastas, cheese, bread. I’m also going to start living at the gym. Which actually started earlier tonight. I’ve got a friend who will be going with me. She has some weight to lose too, not as much as I do, but some. I’ve also started reading books, diet books. Not like here’s the atkins diet or here’s the zone or any of that, but autobiographies of women who have lost weight. Some of them are harder to relate to, like the women who had 60 or even 30 pounds to lose and kept referring to herself as if she had weighed 500. Others are much easier, like the woman who lost over 200 pounds. It’s not that I don’t think losing 60 or 30 pounds would be hard, but I need to do that two or four times. Not to mention how much harder it is to work out when you are this out of shape. But, whether or not I fully relate to the diet books, whether or not I completely agree with the specific diet or exercise plans they used, they’re motivating just to read them. They keep me in a mind set that it IS possible to lose weight, in all sorts of different ways.

So, here I am at age 21, 5′3″, 257 pounds and to add insult to injury I’m about to get braces. I am determined that when those braces come off at age 23 I will be happy with myself.

So, the start of my journey. For about 2 weeks I have been cutting out desserts and sodas and those yummy starbucks drinks. At first the sweets were hard because I craved them, and soda’s were hard because I just plain forgot. I would order them when out to eat, and half way through the glass be like “oh crap!” I simply replaced the frappuccino at starbucks with an iced passion tea. Which I now actually really look forward to. This morning I slipped and had some chocolate, it’s not the first time, the other day I had a milkshake, but what I’ve found is they never taste as good as I expect them to. And after I find that out, the craving dissapears. And seems to stay gone. They also don’t make me feel very good. I’ve heard that from other people, that once you stop eating certain things when you have them again they make you sick. I actually think they always make you feel like crap, but when you eat them on a daily basis you view how you feel as normal. I also started my exercise program today. I managed to speed walk 2 miles on the treadmill. It took me about 40 minutes, but I did it. I was actually rather proud of myself. I’m going back to the gym tomorrow and again on Friday. I plan to weight train along with the cardio every other day.

 Well, I’m excited for my new journey. I know it will be hard, but I have faith it will actually work this time.

Thanks for taking the time to read this, and for any advice or words of encouragement you have.